Are You Feeling The Squeeze?

Image by Muhammad Ragab from Pixabay

I hope this blog post finds you well!

I encountered a new health adventure a few months ago which is taking up a fair amount of my time and mental/emotional bandwidth these days.

Perhaps I will share some details in a future blog post.

My sense is that most of us already have plenty of important stuff — family challenges, political engagement, personal growth, climate catastrophes, etc. — to focus on without me adding any more drama to the mix.

So today I am focusing on a new song release AND on my recent re-discovery of how tasty a peanut butter and jelly sandwich can be.

Last month I found a jar of Teddy’s brand peanut butter and a jar of blueberry jam made by Stonewall Kitchen (probably a holiday gift?) on our pantry shelves.

I spread both of them on my favorite multi-grain organic sliced bread from Trader Joe’s.

And voila!

I had a delicious meal.

Eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches during the past few weeks has reminded me of the times in my life when I was working jobs which allowed me (just barely) to pay my rent, buy my groceries, and keep my bicycle in running order.

After I dropped out of college, I found employment as a receptionist (who also did tasks like fold-and-stuff invoices into envelopes when I wasn’t answering the phone), as a shipping clerk and as a janitor.

I was fortunate to have medical and dental insurance as part of those employment situations.

Image by PublicDomainPictures from Pixabay

A few years later I worked as a part-time office manager at a surprisingly preppy alternative health center (one of my acupuncturist bosses had a degree from Dartmouth and the other a degree from Yale).

My responsibilities there included answering the phone, making appointments, setting up treatment rooms, and washing/drying/folding a lot of towels.

Ironically, I don’t think I had any health insurance as a part of that job…

And blessedly I did not need it.

Deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

I am aware that good, affordable health insurance is a rare commodity these days.

And I know there are a LOT of people on planet earth right now who are struggling to pay the rent/mortgage, to buy groceries, to afford their monthly MBTA pass, to fill up their fuel tank, to hold onto their (increasingly minimal) health insurance, to buy new shoes for their children, to pay for medications, etc. etc. etc.

And they are probably eating more and more peanut butter and jelly sandwiches in order to stretch their grocery budget as far as possible.

Another deep breath in.

And deep breath out.

Last week I read an article in our town’s newsletter about a local food pantry which is open 364 days each year.

The only day they are closed is Christmas.

The woman who runs it shared how last year she had prepared Christmas dinner for her family and then at the last minute decided to drive over to the pantry just in case someone hadn’t understood that they were closed.

Image by Steve Buissinne from Pixabay

She wrote she thought she’d be away from her home for fifteen minutes — and instead found thirteen families waiting in the parking lot and hoping for something edible to put on their table.

So she stayed and gave out food until each family had a bag to take home with them.

Wow.

The enormous and often overwhelming economic challenges facing a lot of our fellow human beings is what inspired “Are You Feeling The Squeeze?”

I wrote it a few years ago, when many jobs were being outsourced to other countries.

Now we can also worry about our jobs being replaced by AI.

A friend told me recently — with a mix of ruefulness and “what-can-you-do-about-it?” acceptance — that she was pretty sure she had spent the past few months training some sort of AI program to be able to do her job.

She has wisely started searching for new — and less replaceable — employment.

Another deep breath in.

And deep breath out.

I don’t earn a lot of money doing gigs at retirement communities, leading Music Together classes, and releasing music to be streamed on Pandora, Apple Music, YouTube, etc.

But I have always been blessed to have a roof over my head.

Image by Wolfgang Eckert from Pixabay

And it will be difficult for AI to replace live performances and live music classes (although companies have begun offering “concerts” by ABBA and other beloved musicians using digital avatars created by the Industrial Light and Magic company, which George Lucas founded and eventually sold to Disney).

Blech.

I remain very grateful that I saved a chunk of money when I was working a full-time job for 16 years (helping to run a beloved non-profit in Harvard Square).

And I am also grateful that I will start collecting Social Security — if it still exists — next year.

That thought brings me to my final subject…

If you are a citizen of the USA, I hope you are registered to vote in our fast-approaching mid-term elections.

These next few weeks are likely to become wilder and wilder as some of the people who are currently in power attempt to hold onto it by any means possible.

Let’s keep blogging, and reading, and writing poetry, and taking photos, and making art, and making music, and writing postcards, and holding up signs, and joining phone banks, and making strategic financial donations, and breathing in, and breathing out.

Last week I skimmed an article about recent political history in Hungary and in Serbia.

If I understood the gist of it correctly, both countries managed to rid themselves of dictatorial leadership as a result — among other things — of public demonstrations. national strikes and significant voter turnout.

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Now I am very curious to see what unfolds in the days and weeks ahead!

One more deep breath in.

And deep breath out.

Thank you to the skillful and generous photographers at Pixabay.

Thank you to Stephen C. Fischer for his graphic design work.

Thank you to Doug Hammer for his creative piano playing and for his wizard-like production skills.

And thank YOU for reading and listening to another one of my blog posts!

PS: If you are inspired to listen to my music on your favorite streaming platform, here is a link for “Are You Feeling The Squeeze?“

PPS: Any “likes” — as well as adding one of my songs to one of your personal playlists — are extremely helpful to bolster my modest musical life here on planet earth.

After The Holidays

Image by Robert Karkowski from Pixabay

Greetings during this time of short days and long nights in the northern hemisphere.

I hope you are warm and well as you read this blog post.

Right now in Massachusetts we are graced with a beautiful full moon shining down on our snow-less streets.

I first shared the song “After The Holidays” (in the player at the top of this page) three years ago in a blog post about the challenges of feeling lonely during the holiday season.

As you may remember — or perhaps you have blocked it out of your memory in order to be able to move on with your life — three years ago things were not going well in the USA.

Many hospitals were overwhelmed by COVID — with dead bodies being stored in refrigerated trailer trucks until funeral homes and crematoria could catch up with the demand for their services.

Image by StockSnap from Pixabay

It was a very challenging winter holiday season.

And 2023 has brought new challenges — and tragedies — into our lives here on planet earth.

Deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

Wars continue to grind along, destroying human lives along with the lives of countless other beings caught in the cross fire. Pollution continues to seep into every ecosystem here on planet earth. Climate change continues to increase with catastrophic consequences.

My heart goes out to anyone who is feeling hopeless, who is feeling distraught, who is feeling alone, or who is feeling unloved during this holiday season.

And although I am fortunate to have a life partner + family + friends with whom I can gather during the holidays, I can vividly remember how heart-broken and grief-stricken I felt when the first big love of my life chose to end our relationship many decades ago…

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“After The Holidays” taps into those feelings of raw desperation.

It was written by John Meyer.

His friend Judy Garland performed it on The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson in 1968.

Mr. Meyer is still alive and living in New York City.

Earlier this month I tracked down an email address for him so that I could let him know I had released a version of his song.

And much to my (happy) surprise, he was kind enough to give it a listen.

Here is how he responded:

“Will, I’m impressed.

Image by Stephen C. Fischer

You’re note-perfect — good for you!

Others bend the melody to suit their often tasteless predilections.

And I like that you take your time with the song, investing it with real poignancy.

Thank you for sharing.

Merry Christmas!”

Needless to say, I am delighted (and relieved) that he responded so positively to how pianist Doug Hammer and I interpreted his song.

Deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

Image by Mariya from Pixabay

And I will gently point out that this is yet another winter holiday song written (or co-written) by Jewish composers/lyricists — joining a beloved list of favorites including “Rudolph The Red-Nosed Reindeer,” “Silver Bells,” “Winter Wonderland,” “Let It Snow,” and “I Heard The Bells On Christmas Day.”

Here is a link to my version “After The Holidays“ in case you might like to stream it.

And as I have explained before, if you “like” one of my songs or add it to one of your playlists, that will improve the algorithmic sharing of my music.

Thank you to the John Meyer for writing such a moving song.

Thank you to Doug Hammer for playing so sensitively on my version of John’s song AND for being such a diligent engineer/producer.

Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

Thank you to Stephen Fischer for his terrific graphic design work.

Thank you to the photographers at Pixabay — and to Scott Wynn — for their great images.

And thank YOU for reading. and listening to another one of my blog posts!

May your 2024 be full of peace and hope and determination…

Just Stay With Me…

It’s a gray day here in the Boston area.

Rain is forecast for Christmas Day, which will probably melt the snow that fell last week.

Lot of folks are curtailing their holiday plans and modifying — or outright cancelling — long-standing family traditions in response to the fact that hospitals around the USA are again overloaded with Covid-19 cases.

And the infection numbers just keep rising…partly due to all the traveling that folks did a few weeks ago during Thanksgiving.

And the refrigerated trailer trucks parked outside of hospitals continue to fill up with the bodies of folks who have died — with no friends or family members at their side — as a result of this public health tragedy.

This is sad on so many levels.

Deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

Even in the best of years, winter holidays can be a very difficult time for some of us.

I read a couple of blog posts by my fellow bloggers this morning while I was avoiding other tasks on my “to do” list.

Clare from North Suffolk in England shared a bit about the challenges her family is facing this year, especially those who already experience high levels of anxiety about life here on planet earth.

She writes: “The damage all this isolation and lock-down is doing to so many people, physically, mentally and financially is unimaginably great…”

Another deep breath in.

And deep breath out.

Clare’s blog post reminded me of this song, written by John Meyer (in the audio player above).

I do not remember when I first heard “After The Holidays.”

Judy Garland performed it on The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson in 1968 — and many copies of that performance can be found on YouTube.

I am guessing that it was included on some sort of Judy Garland compilation CD — released long after her death in 1969 — which I ended up listening to…

Here is Judy in 1963, photographed by Richard Avedon.

The man who wrote the song, John Meyer, had an intense, three-month-long relationship with Judy when he was starting his career as a writer.

He chronicles it in a very vivid book he wrote called Heartbreaker.

I think his relationship with Judy ended when she got serious about another man, Mickey Deans.

Here she is with Mickey in London during their wedding on March 15, 1969.

Judy was living with Mickey in London when she died on June 22, 1969.

It is my understanding, after reading many books about Judy Garland, that she often did not like to be left alone.

Mel Torme — a wonderful singer who also co-wrote “The Christmas Song” — wrote a book about his time working on Judy’s TV series.

In it he talks about becoming a member of “The Dawn Patrol” — a select group of staff members who would take turns spending the night with Judy and reassuring her that her show was going well.

Loneliness is certainly something that most of us have experienced at one time or another.

And loneliness during the holidays can be particularly excruciating.

By a sweet coincidence, while I was avoiding things on my “to do” list, I also found a video on YouTube about two dogs, Taco (a chihuahua) and Merrill (a pit bull mix), who were dropped off at a shelter together and did NOT want to be seperated.

In hopes of finding someone who would be willing to adopt both of them, the people who worked at their shelter started sharing posts via social media about their special bond.

They ended up being adopted by a family who started a Facebook page about them, because so many other people wanted to know what had happened to them.

Hurrah for this one, small, canine happy ending!

I also would like for this blog post to have a happy musical ending.

So I am including links to several songs which pianist Doug Hammer and I have released this month to various musical platforms such as Spotify and Apple Music.

You can click here to listen to our version of “We Need A Little Christmas.”

You can click here to listen to our version of “Winter Wonderland.” 

You can click here to listen to our version of “The Christmas Song.”

You can click here to listen to our version of “Silver Bells” (which was featured in a recent blog post).

And you can click here to listen to our version of “I Heard The Bells On Christmas Day.”

Thank you to Pixabay and Wikimedia Commons for the images in this blog post.

Thank you to Doug Hammer for his gifts as a pianist as well as a recording engineer.

Thank you to John Meyer for his beautiful song and to Judy Garland for being the first person to breath life into it.

And thank you to YOU for reading and listening to another one of my blog posts!

May your holiday season be filled with comforting music and light.

ps: You are always welcome to visit my website, and you can find me on Spotify, Pandora, Apple Music and other digital music platforms.

I Heard The Bells…

I Heard The Bells…

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Jazz pianist Joe Reid (left) and I (right) have put together a bunch of one-hour programs of music during the past six years.

You can click here for a list of our musical programs if you are curious.

We share them at public libraries, retirement communities, memory cafes, and coffee houses.

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Our latest program features songs written for — and/or made famous by — Bing Crosby.

I had known very little about Mr. Crosby before requesting several biographies about him via our local inter-library network (which includes the terrific Robbins library pictured above in a photo by Jinny Sagorin).

Mostly I remembered him for singing an incongruous but lovely duet with David Bowie on a Christmas TV special.

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I also knew that he loved golfing and had sung “White Christmas” — which became one of the highest selling recordings ever made.

And I was aware that at least one of his children had written about how challenging it was to have him as a father.

After reading several books about him, my perspective on Mr. Crosby has become much more complicated and fascinating and human…

To begin with, I hadn’t understood how HUGE a star Bing was.

His weekly radio programs reached millions of listeners for decades.

He was in the top ten of Hollywood box office money-makers for decades.

His recordings regularly topped the charts for decades.

He was definitely one of America’s first “superstars.”

He was also a devoted Catholic, following the spiritual path of his mother (who had requested that Bing’s father convert to Catholicism before they were married).

He sang an extraordinarily wide range of songs — from cowboy to Irish to jazz to pop to show tunes to hymns to Americana.

Although a Republican, he had a huge hit during the early years of the Great Depression with Yip Harburg and Jay Gorney’s empathetic lament for the common man, “Brother, Can You Spare A Dime?” — which hit the airwaves right before FDR was elected to his first term as president.

And he was one of the first recording artists to release an album of Christmas holiday songs.

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One of the many Christmas songs Bing recorded — “I Heard The Bells On Christmas Day” — has become a new favorite of mine.

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Bing recorded it on October 3, 1956, and it soon became a holiday classic.

I recorded it earlier this month with pianist Doug Hammer at his studio in Lynn, MA (and our version is included in the player at the beginning of this blog post).

I discovered on Wikipedia that the lyrics were written by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow on Christmas Day, 1863 while the USA was in the middle of our astoundingly horrible and bloody Civil War.

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He lived in Cambridge, MA — a couple of miles away from where I now live — and one of his sons had left home to fight in the Union Army.

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You can click here to learn more about Longfellow’s poem on Wikipedia if you are curious.

He experienced many deep losses during his lifetime — his first wife died after a miscarriage and his second wife died from burn wounds after her dress accidentally caught on fire — and perhaps as a result, he developed very empathetic heart.

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Many different composers have been moved to set this particular poem to music over the years.

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In 1956 Johnny Marks — a Jewish songwriter whose creative output also includes “Rudolph The Red-Nosed Reindeer,” “Rockin’ Around The Christmas Tree,” “Run, Rudolph, Run,” “Silver and Gold,” “A Holly, Jolly Christmas,” and all of the other songs from the Rudolph holiday TV show — devised a lovely tune for a few stanzas from Longfellow’s poem.

I’m not sure why this song touches me so deeply…

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Perhaps it is an echo of Longfellow’s broken-heartedness and faith reverberating from the depths of America’s civil war to our present moment of cultural unrest…

I am grateful to be reminded of the gentle power of words and music during this season of short days and long nights.

I am grateful to Pixabay and Wikimedia Commons and Stephen Fischer and Jinny Sagorin for the images in this blog post.

And I am grateful to YOU for reading and listening to this blog post.

May we experience more peace and empathy in the new year!

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